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LIFE IT REALLY MAKES ME WONDER AS TO WHY WE GET INVOLVED WITH PEOPLE WHO WANT TO BE LAZY AND WHY WE ARE IN LOVE BUT YET NOT IN LOVE. IT IS HARD TO EXPLAIN AS TO WHY I FEEL THIS WAY I JUST DON’T KNOW HOW IT SEEMS THAT I’M GROWING AWAY FROM THE PERSON WHO SAYS THAT HE LOVES ME THE MOST. I THINK THAT IT IS BECAUSE HE HAS BEEN SUCH AN ASS LAITLY I JUST THINK THAT I NEED SOME ITME TO FIGURE OUT WHAT I WANT FOR THIS FAMILY AND FOR THE BOYS THAT I HAVE. I JUST NEED TO SIT AND MEDITATE ON WHAT IT IS THAT I WANT I LOVE A PERSON AND HE KNOWS WHO HE IS. I I FEELAS THOUGH I NEED TO BEE THERE BUT YET I WANT HIM HERE WITH ME TO BE AS A HOLD I JUST DONT UNDERSTAND AS TO WHY IT IS THAT I FEEL THIS WAY MAYBE IT IS THAT THE GODDESS HAS SET THE PATH BEFORE ME AND I HAVE VIERED OFF OF IT AND SHE IS PUTTING ME THROUGH TESTS TO SEE IF I WILL MAKE IT. ON THE OTHER HAND I HAVE ALWAYS WONDERED IF I RELEASED MY TRUE SELF WHAT PEOPLE WOULD THINK.
I KNOW THAT I’M A LOT STRONGER THAN IT SEEMS BUT I KNOW THE I CAN HANDLE THE TRUALS THAT I HAVE STARTED I JUST DON’T KNOW IF THE OTHER PERSON INVOLVE CAN HANDLE IT HTE WAY THAT I WILL PRESENT IT I JUST HOPE THAT HE WON’T BE AS HURT AS I THINK HE WILL BE. IN THE TIME TO COME THE GODDESS WILL GUIDE ME IN THE DIRESTION THAT HE WANTS ME TO BE IN. I SEE THAT I HAVE A CHOICE THAT HAS TO BE MADE AND I DONT KNOW WHICH DIRECTION TO TAKE. THAT I’M LEAVING UP TO THE GODDESS. IN HER WILL IS WHAT I WILL DO SHE HAS TO GUIDE ME AS TO WHAT TO DO.
OTHER WISE I DO NOT KNOW WHAT TO DO. I JUST FEEL SO SMALL WHEN HE TALKS TO ME SOME TIMES. BUT YET WHEN YOU TALK TO ME I FEEL AS THOUGH I’M A PRINCESS OR LIKE I’M ON TOP OF THE WORLD.
IT IS IN THE GODDESSES HANDS.
he is a boyfriend/fancie but he has been rather mean and lazy. some of the little things that he says makes me think that he doesnt trust me like “your going to have someone in our bed tonight” it really makes me want to have another person in bed when he comes home from work. just to see what he would say.